Her Reminisce

          She had the most beautiful eyes,one that could make you say yes to all she asked for,a pointed nose,high cheek bones and a deep dimple on her left cheek out on display even as she talks,her calm coordinated and polite words I remember and velvety laughter which was so contagious.Body of a goddess,long straight legs one could only dream about,chocolate smooth skin,an above average student,a fashion force with an aura of modesty.What from the bucket of perfection was she not?
      She had friends,well with all these qualities and more you'd expect that.she wasn't too chatty or a talkative but was very funny,she loved to make people laugh,she always had a smile on her face,I never saw her frown or sad.Her parents were hardworking,very rich,she had all she needed and wanted but you never know because she doesn't shove it up your face.Just a simple girl admired from far and near.All of a sudden,all was void.
       We lost her on the eve of her 16th birthday to a disease I can't pronounce or spell,never heard of it until she passed on.It was after her passing we got to realize,she was never okay.she's been sick from birth of this disease,her life practically depended on drugs and blood transfusions.She has  been taking 14 different tablets daily,daily injections,weekly blood transfusions and oxygen for at least an hour each day.Each holiday we never hear from her,we assume she went on a fun filled vacation but never did we know she was in some hospital fighting to stay alive,taking various tests,trying out different prescriptions from doctors as they struggled to find a cure.
    Yes,she left a note,to her parents,her friends and us.
      Mum,Dad I thank you for all you've done,I love,cherish and appreciate you.You've been with me from the beginning and thanks to you,I had a great life,all the memories are beautiful and I couldn't have wished for a better mum and Dad.Do not cry much,because I know you'll both look horrible 😂 and mum it's not healthy for you to cry in your current condition.Be happy for I am happy,in 8 months a bundle of joy with come into your lives,I've been waiting for them.
   To my lovely friends and all who I ever set eyes on,you are all beautiful,inside out,no one has it all or is wholly perfect,we all have our individual demons we struggle to overcome,don't let the reverse be the case.Thank you.Focus on being good than proving to be good,find strength in your weakness.Until we meet again 
                                                         ~Grace 
      On the day of her funeral,we were told all this,I was shocked,I never knew all this,even her close friends did not.It made me think of myself,I am healthy,my family is,we're not so buoyant but we have our basic necessities,I don't even have a bank account or an iPhone like my friends,I have very few followers,37 and I envy those with "k" after the numbers or those with a little blue ✅ and some plastic and real girls with the tiniest waists and curves that clearly have nothing to add to my life,it made me angry I wasn't like them or dint belong,we were all in the same age bracket,why was I not as glamorous as them? It kept me up some nights,different negative thoughts came up as ways to be like them.But realize now,it's okay to be me,the way I am.I am worth it and I just need to focus on things that really matter,make memories with my family and friends,laugh hard and just be happy and at peace.
     It was through this note her mom got to know she was Pregnant,fast forward to 8months later,she bore triplets- two girls and a boy.oh How beautiful they are.



     Note:"You're not the only one going through a phase,we all are.The ability to realize you're not the only one struggling or with problems aids your actions,tackle your problems with a brave heart and don't let your problems cloud you.I call it a phase for I know and you too should know this...it will pass.We are all beautifully made,as our destiny differs,so does our graces.Since there is no man without a destiny,there is no man without grace it just comes at different times as we all are different"



    Something from my wild thoughts
     Written by 1.47am.September 23